It's hard to believe that today marks 9 months since I had Calvin, which now makes it the same amount of time that we had with him as he grew inside of me. I know I never got to interact with him outside of my body but we have unforgettable memories with him. We would sing and talk to him, rub him as he would kick (or punch) back, and James would always play guitar for him. Every night at bedtime was when we would interact with him most, he always moved as soon as he heard his dad's deeper voice. James would call him "Cal boy" and it melted my heart how much he loved him already. I have videos of Calvin squirming around and I'm so grateful to have those. As horrific as that day was, I would never wish I hadn't had him. I would do it all over again just to have those moments with Calvin. He has forever changed me. I will never take pregnancy for granted and am hopeful for more chances. You are never promised the next day, so make everyday with your baby count. So as sad as I am that he isn't here for his first Thanksgiving, I am thankful for him and the promise that he is with the Lord. I love you, Calvin James!
I hope everyone hugs their children extra today because you are so blessed to have them in your life!
I hope you have a Happy Thanksgiving with your families. ❤️
Love to you all,
This is one of my favorite worship songs that reminds me that God WILL restore my heart. It may not be with Calvin but he promises us something much bigger. Great are You, Lord.